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The Music Lives On

Today I was standing on my tip toes singing at the top of my lungs.  The sound reverberated and echoed throughout the house.  It was thrilling to my soul and physically invigorating.  I was working hard, because these lungs of mine are a bit out of shape.  It took all the wind I had to fill my lungs and belt the sound from deep inside.  The words to an old gospel song filled our home with music and it made me melt inside. I remembered how much I love singing and playing the piano.  It was a bittersweet moment.  And for just a few minutes I reflected on the memories of making music. 
I am a classically trained musician and for years I made my living teaching and performing. I would never have imagined that I would trade music for another occupation, but I did. I sold my beautiful Yamaha piano 7 years ago, and our family gave up our worldly good in exchange for the road less traveled...literally!  We bought an RV and hit the road with nothing more than faith and dreams in our pockets. …

Me Too!

Have you seen the hashtag, #metoo?  If you have, then you know these people are being brave enough to share publicly that they have been the victims of sexual abuse.  Good for them I say, because all too often people suffer their abuse in silence.  I applaud the speaking out and up about abuse, because when we do so, the abuser begins to lose their power over us.
Abuse is a real thing.  It is not just sexual, it is verbal, physical, emotional and even religious.  Anytime we believe that we must force our strength, words/opinions and beliefs over someone else, it's abuse.  
Perhaps a more appropriate word for what I have experienced is bruising. I find the deep seated roots of this bruising to go so deep that it almost feels like it's inscribed in my DNA.  Though it is not, I have found the struggle to escape the snares to be real and ongoing.  Those words spoken or actions taken by past abusers can come back in our weakest moments.  They also come at times when we are least e…

Social Media

I've concluded...some days I really don't like social media.There...I said it out loud!!!It already makes me feel better just saying this.It makes my beyond frustrated.I mean, like I have cried, had anxiety attacks and been super frustrated over some things related to this social scene.I admit it.I recently tried two IG Loop Giveaways and it was horrible....and all for getting LIKES!Seriously this stuff is nuts.

I guess this whole social media scene makes me truly understand how anti-social many people really are.I've done all the things you are "supposed" to do...use the right hashtags, the right words, the right filters for pics, the honesty, the vulnerability...being real and being me.I have done everything to be honest and to reach real people but I am finding it's way too much work for the results.And so, it would seem, this world may not be good for me.I hate the sense of competition.I hate that I feel I don't compare.That for some reason, if my phot…

Business and Burdens

Today is one of those days when life has come crashing in all around me.I feel myself sinking beneath the load of frustration, stress and disappointment. I can't win at life from the popularity contest standpoint.For me, I have never been able to break that barrier and it has not really bothered me.Every once in a while, though, I feel the desire to soar and to be the one people talk good about.I'd like to have the world see me for who I am and even more I'd love for every person I know to wear a piece of our jewelry. I'd like the words I write and the pictures I post to get tons of likes...seriously, why else do it, right?!I often don't get the response that I seek and some times it gets the best of me and sends me into a bit of a tizzy.And...if you are honest, you might feel the same way too.Here we are just trying to stand out and make our place in the world.It can be so frustrating!
Hey, I am just being honest.Iengage to be engaged.I reach out to build a new c…